Always in Training
The good life is a process, not a state of being. It is a direction, not a destination. - Carl Rogers I was practicing body work last week with a friend who also prefers the Eudaimonia (good life) path (See the post “Eudaimonia: The Aim of Therapy” to read more about the meaning of the word). He said to me, “We are always in training. The healing journey of the soul never ends. I won’t ever ‘arrive.’ This is so beautiful and so frustrating. I guess I have to figure out how to surrender to that.” I sat there and nodded, looking into the space in front of me. A slide show of memories paraded through my mind of the many moments I've been invited to surrender to the training-with-no-end. Many times I have also thought I would “arrive” and that I would finally do the thing that would allow me to fully relax and coast through the remainder of my days on this pale blue dot. At last, all I would have is peace and fun. Toil, fear, and shame would be banished from my being forever, and I would never have to deal with a difficult person ever again! I’ve also had to realize that no such end exists, that what I should be seeking is something entirely different, and that I needed to suss it out pronto if I am going to have my Eudaimonia. Oh! The grief I have felt letting go of that dream! Part of me chuckles that I mourn such waywardness. But hey, that other part of me who believes in the once-and-for-all really thinks she has “it:” the answer to all of life's problems. That is no small loss. What I am gaining now is not necessarily better than what I wanted life to be, but it is realistic and follows the rules of our reality here on this earth in these human bodies. So, in that sense, it is better. It's better because it works in this reality. It allows for what is instead of demanding what is not. I was trying to create an impossible fantasy. So what is it that I am gaining? A process and a direction. It's a shift from seeking a permanent state of contentment (control, gripping, getting high, walling-up, invulnerability, atrophy, fear, suspicion, distrust, hardness, shoulds) due to having gained the perfect material situation (money, beauty, fame, respect, being the best, etc.) to embracing the dynamism (allowing, letting go, groundedness, flexibility, vulnerability, resilience/anti-fragility, trust, love, suppleness, what is) that lets me know I’m alive. I now seek balanced aliveness. It's a special flavor of seeking that feels like constant calibration. I always want to seek the center (that is not to say I don't often fail, but I do try). Seeking: A Necessity and a Problem The drive to seek and progress is natural and innate. You can practice non-seeking, but even that is a kind of seeking. You are hardwired to seek. It's a fundamental part of being human. For any science nerds out there, Jaak Panksepp described the mesolimbic dopaminergic (ML DA) system responsible for all appetitive behavior and mental activity. You can’t get rid of it. It is so helpful and necessary, but it also causes so many problems. The ML DA is responsible for pursuing wants and needs, but it is also responsible for addiction. It is the foundation for our pervasive sense of restlessness and dissatisfaction. Seeking is central to our ability to survive. If, as a cave human, you gathered all the nuts and berries you need for today, sat down, and ate them all without getting more, tomorrow you would be hungry. If goals were deeply satisfying the way we want them to be, we would have never survived as a species. The problem is, now we have as many nuts and berries as we want, especially if you're in the majority of the developed world. If you are reading this, that is most likely you. While you are pursuing your goal, you feel good while you make progress. When you arrive at your goal, you feel rewarded and then immediately sad and depressed. Progressing towards a goal always feels better than completing a goal. This is why addiction is so compelling but feels so bad. With addiction, you artificially create an environment in your neurochemistry that makes you feel like you've arrived at the end of big goals over and over without having had to do the long-form work that big goals take. Another way to say this (for those of you who like neuroscience) is you are messing with the dopamine/serotonin/endorphin/oxytocin system. When you take the drug or do the behavior, you flood yourself with dopamine, which makes you feel like you're accomplishing something. Then you experience the effects of some or all of serotonin/endorphins/oxytocin, giving you a sense of completion, safety, connection, and/or a job well done. But it is artificial, so it does not hold up to the pressures of life. The addiction cycle becomes shorter and more frequent, eventually crowding out everything that actually holds water in your life. Completing a goal has a special feeling to it. It packs a big punch. But it is always followed by disappointment and sadness. This is why people make harder goals as they arrive at their original goal. You arrive at your goal and don’t feel the feeling you were expecting to feel, so you assume that there is something wrong with your goal and change the goal. But there is nothing wrong with the goal. The problem is your relationship to and understanding of what a goal actually is. Alan Watts has this to say about the “goal” of life: “We thought of life by analogy with a journey, a pilgrimage, which had a serious purpose at the end, and the thing was to get to that end, success or whatever it is, maybe heaven after you’re dead. But we missed the point the whole way along. It was a musical thing, and you were supposed to sing or to dance while the music was being played.” A goal is that at which you aim. Eudaimonia, a sense of well-being, comes from feeling progress toward a goal and also the spirit with which you walk towards it. Therefore, you need goals that you can never complete but are good to aim for. Goals like becoming wise, finding balance, understanding yourself and reality, and being honest in a tactful way. Then, you make these goals acts of play. You can never be done pursuing these goals because you can’t complete them. The music does not end until you draw your final breath. And then…who knows? It’s okay to have additional goals like making money, athletic achievements, career success, and traveling to new places. But since you can complete these goals, they should be small side quests or addendums to your endless goals. Side quests are best enjoyed in a state of play. Otherwise, you will persist as a being leading a life “of quiet desperation,” having it all except for a sense of satisfaction. I grew up around and have worked with many powerful people as a somatic bodyworker. There are people who are rich, famous, and fulfilled, and rich, famous, and broken. The difference has everything to do with the pursuit of endless goals versus the short-lived ones. On the other side of the coin, I have clocked many hours among the houseless and those of meager earnings. The same notion applies. I befriended a man of real fulfillment who lived in a tent on the cold side of the mountain in Santa Fe named Doc. He was beloved by whom he called the “residentially challenged,” as well as tourists, locals, and artists. I broke bread with my neighbor Herman, a former physics professor in Austin who took a vow of austerity in his later years. He had few possessions and prided himself on his ability to walk for hours around town. He provided personal aphorisms to me as little asides that moved mountainous earth in my young life, shaping the course I continue to take today. These two had little to show in terms of wealth or status (Doc was a little famous) at the end of their lives, but they were dripping with love and wisdom. Their abundance radiated from their beings and delighted those who could see it. People who are only focus on material goals miss the glory of these souls entirely because their being is not calibrated to behold the light of a full life well lived. That is not to say that Herman lived a better life than Bernie Madoff (the financier behind the largest Ponzi scheme in history). All things have their place in the world because the world “just is” it's not good or bad. But Herman was clearly fulfilled by his life though modest of means, and Bernie lost all he sought to attain because he built a faulty tower. He put all of the meaning in life into material things and died in prison with none of it. So, it's a matter of what choice you want to make. Do you want to build your life more on the stable ground of goals-with-no-end and playfulness, or do you want to tip the scales towards risking it all in the game of absolute materialism? Neither is wrong; it's a matter of preference and a spectrum at that. You can die in prison with nothing and still feel fulfilled as long as you had a few intangible goals in your your back pocket. You can be exceeding wealthy and famous and have Eudaimonia but it will not be due to the accumulation of wealth and fame. Lessons Along the Path The Eudaimonia path is always available whenever you want to walk it. In an instant, you can step onto it for the first time or rejoin your long relationship with it. The Eudaimonia path loves you and will never leave your side. That is why it is so easy to connect and reconnect to it, at least as far as Eudaimonia is concerned. And during the time before you join it or when you stray from it, it will consistently reach out to you, sending you little messages and beckoning you to return. The Noseo (ill-being) path wants you too, by the way, and has its own seductive nature. Your Eudaimonia will not be ruined if you choose to indulge in Noseo from time to time. In fact, a little Noseo enhances Eudaimonia. It's a matter of balance. So whether you are on the Eudaimonia path or are adjacent to it, as you seek and progress through life, you encounter the lessons of the path. These lessons are the reward of the Eudaimonia path. When you understand the lesson, you feel rewarded. Sometimes, when your connection to the path is not strong, you may not feel rewarded. You might feel shamed by the lesson like life is making fun of you or putting you in your place. Eventually, you feel that life loves you, is telling your stories, and teaching your soul. Or, maybe you don't understand the lesson. In that case, life loves you so much that it will increase the volume with which it teaches. In the words of a mentor of mine, “First life knocks on the door, then it kicks it open, then if that doesn't work, it will burn your house down, and it will continue to escalate until you understand the message and start loving yourself again.” This is the training protocol. The more competent you become walking the path, the more you will hear the knocks and avoid the escalations. The purpose of these life lessons is to get you focused on the “right” things. Now, before you take that as proselytizing, what I mean is the “right” things for you at that exact time in your life. Something that is right for one person is not right for the other. Something that is right for you right now is not right for you later. It is an extraordinarily subjective process. Practical Application of the Process Set Goals The process of Eudaimonia is an art form. You are looking for a balance between setting and pursuing goals while letting go of attaining the goals in a particular way. You also want to set attainable and relevant goals to your overall picture of well-being. An example of such a goal is running a mile without stopping as a new runner who eventually wants to run a marathon or learning to understand your parts (as in parts work) in the short term so that you can build a mature self in the long term. Dream as big as you can. This works for goals-without-end as well as side quest goals. Perhaps your dream is to become enlightened or to have a big, successful business. Let go of the outcome of ever attaining the goal, but work towards it anyway. Your big dream is the symbol of the path you are on. The point is not to get to the end of the path. The point is being on the path. Once you're on the path, you’re “there.” Being there is not enough, though; you must also progress along the path to feel a sense of satisfaction and delight. You will receive many gifts as you walk the path. Appreciate the gifts along the way, but never let go of your dream, no matter if you get there or not. Have a clear intention and light attachment. An intention is a guess where your efforts will take you. When you get information that conflicts with your intention, change your intention, but never let go of your big dream unless you want to change it to a different big dream. Make sure you have multiple big dreams so you don't get super fixated on one of them. If you start to get fixated, change focus. Prioritize Your Goals When you want to add new habits to your life that you aren't already doing, you have to put a special mental effort toward this change. If you want to run a mile and are not a runner, you don't have a part of you that craves running that will automatically remind you to get out there and train. Instead, running will easily get pushed down the to-do list if other tasks emerge during the day. So, you have to implement strategies to get yourself to prioritize practicing the new goal. Then, even if you successfully prioritize the new goal, you might find that when it is time to go on the run, you experience a lot of mental resistance. The resistance is normal and, unexpectedly, is the key to developing Eudaimonia, the good life. Eudaimonia is directly born out of the challenges and discomforts that you choose and prioritize in life. Noseo, ill-being, comes from the challenges and discomforts that happen to you. When I worked in the fitness world, I would say, “You can either feel sore from your workout or sore from having a weak back. You choose.” Take on Mini-Goals within Your Big Goals You want to avoid overwhelming yourself with your goals. Trying to do too big of a goal all at once will set you up to get discouraged and fail. If you have small enough goals, you will enjoy yourself. Completing these small goals will make you want to achieve the next small goal. You can have in your mind that you do want to run a marathon someday. It's okay to have lofty goals. You might plan to run a marathon next year and have a series of mini-goals that lead up to it. If you are consistent in your training but do not meet your mini goals despite your best efforts, it is better to change your goal schedule rather than try to force yourself to meet your arbitrary deadlines or to get rid of your goal altogether. Herein lies another aspect of the art and balance of the process of Eudaimonia. It is optional that you run the marathon or complete the lofty goal. It is important that you are consistently making that mental resistance in your system and choosing to practice consistently anyway. Even if you never run a marathon (maybe it's not right for your body for some reason), you have now developed a running habit that brings health to the body and mind (if running is the right form of movement for you). You do not have to be a fast runner or have incredible endurance to get these health benefits. Know When to Stop Working for the Day Quit while you're ahead, as they say. Keep a spark of spaciousness in your energy levels. You are playing the long game. Working really hard all at once because you are trying to get to the end of the big goal or mini goal as quickly as possible is the Noseo (ill-being) path. Paraphrasing Alan Watts: if the point of music were to get to the end, the best conductors would play the symphonies the fastest. We would go to concerts just to hear the big final notes, applaud, and walk out. Work done correctly is play. Children play until they want to rest, and then they do so, and so should we if our aim is Eudaimonia. Of course, your mileage may vary. Some people have constitutions that like to play hard for a really long time, and others only some. More is needed than a formula. You must know yourself. Set and Pursue Goals with Others If you are trying to do something particularly challenging for you or you want to maximize your work output, setting goals with others is the way to go. Trying to hold yourself accountable is lonely. Plus, you can turn your goal into a game. When you add other people, you create a sense of camaraderie; we’re all in it together. I don't want to let my buddy down. For some, a little competition is motivating. Crowd Out the Harmful with the Helpful Avoid things that erode your mental and physical health. This is often easier said than done, especially if you have trauma material to work through. Tasking yourself with eliminating bad habits completely is counterproductive. Harm reduction is often a better option. This is especially true of high relapse behaviors like addiction to substances, an eating disorder, and the like. If you've ever tried to kick a strong habit like addiction or an ED or know someone who has gone through this, you know that “Just Quit” is a silly directive. Rather, slowly working towards reducing the behavior over time, or at least performing the habit more safely, yields better results and allows the person to explore positive behaviors while still being able to do what has always worked for them. I've noticed that if you focus on adding positive things rather than taking away the negative things, the positive things begin to crowd out the negative things over time. If the person keeps adding positive things over time, sometimes the habit is completely eliminated. This can take years or even decades, but the elimination of the habit is more permanent than trying to quit cold turkey. To get your creative juices flowing, here is an incomplete list of things in no particular order to include and avoid if you want to build Eudaimonia: Include:
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EUDAIMONIA: THE AIM OF THERAPY Every art and every inquiry, and similarly every action and pursuit, is thought to aim at some good; and for this reason, the good has rightly been declared to be that at which all things aim. - Aristotle Nicomachean Ethics Eudaimonia (εὐδαιμονία) is a Greek word that combines Eu, meaning well, good, easy, enriched, or abundant, and daimon, which refers to the complex Greek concept of supernatural power. Eudaimonia essentially translates as “good supernatural/holy/otherworldly spirit”. The word is also associated with well-being, human flourishing, and good life. Eudaimonia is the opposite of Noseo (νοσέω), meaning ill-being and mental and physical unwellness. It is no secret that humans (and all life forms) want the good and do not want the bad. Much of psychotherapy, coaching, personal training, physical therapy, self-help, etc., involves identifying your unique good and addressing what prevents you from having it. Psychotherapy, in particular, aims to help you develop the knowledge and organization of the Self so that you can live a life that is good for you and others. The following addresses these questions: What is the Self? What is Eudaimonia (healthy Self)? How do you build Eudaimonia? How does a therapist help you build Eudaimonia? I write this essay as an attempt to explain primarily to myself the nature of the goal of my work as a therapist and a client, as well as to describe the environment of the human psyche that I experience as “geometrical” for lack of a better word. What I mean by geometrical is that it is organized and has a visuospatial feel. My exploration is foundational, and I attempt to avoid going into too great of detail on anything because I want the underlying scaffolding of the psyche as I sense it to come into relief. I’ve used formatting and color-coding on key terms because I am describing diagrams (download the PDF above to experience the color-coding and formatting). I find that when I describe diagrams in paragraphs, the meaning can become murky without some visual aids for the reader. Before I continue, I want to acknowledge Dr. Paul Conti. As I began working on this piece, I happened upon his discussion with Andrew Huberman on the Structure and Function of Self and his definition of a “healthy self.” I felt inspired to expand on these concepts as I experience them. I also want to acknowledge Dick Swartz, Ph.D., founder of Internal Family Systems. I use some of his language when talking about the Self and parts. The work of these two people, along with many others, helps me put words to how I sense the structure of the human psyche in myself and my clients. The first part of this essay has a technical philosophical feel to it. If you do not like that kind of writing but want some practical thoughts on how to build Eudaimonia, skip ahead to the section called Healthy Character Structure (Eudaimonia) vs. an Unhealthy Character Structure (Noseo). What is the Whole Self? Color Coded Key of Terms (open the PDF link above to see color coding) Whole Self = “I am” Transcendent, capital-S Self = the higher self; feels like the “true” self to the Whole Self earthly, lowercase-s self = the ego/vehicle ridden/driven by the Whole Self to navigate the World of Form Structure of self = the organization of ego/vehicle Function of self = the action of the ego/vehicle Character Structure = the temperament and habits; type of vehicle and how it handles The Whole Self is what we mean when we say “I” or “me” (unless we have confused ourselves with one of our parts). It is made up of the transcendent, capital-S Self, which is indivisible, and the earthly, lowercase-s self, composed of the unconscious, the conscious, and parts. I’m using the words earthly and transcendent to get the gist of these aspects of self across. The World of Form in the image above refers to the earthly, material world we can see, touch, and interact with daily from birth until death. Beyond the World of Form refers to the realms of spirituality and other mathematical dimensions (think 5th through the 10th or however many physicists talk about these days), the great mystery. The (earthly) self has more to do with daily, egoic things. The (transcendent) Self is also involved in daily things but includes things outside of time and space. The (transcendent) Self experiences life but does not get damaged by, increased by, or caught up in life. The Structure of (earthly) self is how the (earthly) self is divided and organized. The Whole Self (Self+self) experiences all aspects of the self and does things out in the environment and inside the (earthly) self. This “doing” is called the Function of (earthly) self. The Function of (earthly) self is to engage in processes, behaviors, and defenses. The Whole Self is the “I,” as in “I am here; I am alive now.” The Structure of (earthly) self is the vehicle of the Whole Self. The Function of self is the action of the Whole Self; the driving of the vehicle. The Character Structure is how the Structure of self appears and acts. It is the type of vehicle you drive and how it handles. The Capital-S (transcendent) Self The “capital-S” Self is your sense of meaningful existence, your truest self, the real you. Different types of therapy view this self as a pure, higher self, free from wounding and unhelpful defenses. It is called the wise self, the mindful/resourced adult, the adult self, the larger self, the higher self, and so on. This (transcendent) Self feels calm and alive, connected to everything. I think of it as simultaneously interpenetrating and transcending the Structure of self, like a cloud that surrounds and fills the whole body and mind. It interacts with and “rides” the body and mind through this world. The (transcendent) Self both is the body/mind and is beyond the body/mind. When the (earthly) self harmonizes with the (transcendent) Self, you then have Eudaimonia: the good spirit. The Whole Self feels more like itself when it’s aligned with the(transcendent) Self. The Lowercase-s earthly self: The Vehicle The lowercase-s earthly self is often called the ego. We need it to interface with the World of Form. We often erroneously think we are the (earthly) ego self instead of the (transcendent) Self or the Whole Self, which is how the ego can become unhelpful. It’s like thinking that you are your car or bicycle and that your value is the same as your car’s value. Despite this challenge, the (earthly) ego self is necessary and useful. If we were only the (transcendent) Self, we would have no vehicle to move through the world. The Structure of (earthly) self The Whole Self is riding the Structure (vehicle). The Structure also anchors the (transcendent) Self to the World of Form. The Structure is composed of the unconscious and the conscious. The Structure can also be thought of as a collection of parts or sub-personalities. So, the capital-S Self is sort of like the primary or optimal personality with a transcendent quality to it, and the Whole Self is “riding” and using the parts to navigate the World (both the World of Form and Beyond the World of Form). The Whole Self is not the conscious, unconscious, or parts. The conscious, unconscious, and parts make up the vehicle that carries the Whole Self through the world. What is this vehicle made of? First, let’s talk about the conscious and unconscious. We’ll use Freud’s classic iceberg model to illustrate this: The conscious is the part of the mind we often (falsely) think of as the self. It thinks and perceives. We feel good when the conscious mind feels steady and in control. The conscious mind is vulnerable to confusion, fear, and despair. When the conscious is confused, fearful, or despairing, we do not feel good and can’t always make the best choices for ourselves or in our interactions with others. If we voluntarily go to therapy for the first time, that usually means that part of us can sense that the best choices are not being made by the conscious and/or we don’t feel good. Our safety is threatened if the conscious mind becomes extremely confused, fearful, or despairing. Think of someone with psychosis. They are often extremely confused, fearful, and despairing and can have a lot of difficulty navigating work, housing, and relationships. They often end up unhoused against their will. The preconscious or subconscious is the storage unit of the conscious mind. Nothing is super off-limits. These thoughts and memories might be useful later, just not right now. The unconscious is in charge of automatic things like your heart beating, lungs breathing, waste elimination, posture, gait, instinct to fight or flee danger, and seeking nourishment and safety. It also contains memories, thoughts, and feelings that are difficult and overwhelming for the conscious mind. The unconscious creates automatic defenses to protect the conscious from those things. The way the unconscious defends is part of the Character Structure. These defenses can be thought of as entire sub-personalities, aka parts. When the unconscious identifies a threat to the conscious mind, it sends thoughts and beliefs to the conscious mind and causes behaviors in the person to protect the conscious mind from getting overwhelmed. Parts and Character Structure Parts or Sub-personalities can be mapped onto Freud’s iceberg model. Parts reside in the conscious and unconscious and create the Character Structure. The Character Structure is your unique, individual appearance, flavor, and organization of your Structure of self. Anything other than the (transcendent) Self and the Whole Self is a part and, therefore, contributes to the flavor of the Character Structure. The Character Structure is the type of vehicle your (transcendent )Self and Whole Self are riding. Here are a few examples of how parts are organized and function in the Character Structure: Part of me is altruistic, and part of me is jealous. Part of me likes to exercise, part of me likes to get cozy on a misty day, and so on. Each of these parts can be thought of as whole sub-personalities. The part that likes to be cozy has different emotions, motivations, values, and preferences than the exercise part. Both the exercise and the cozy part are considered acceptable. When I’m in my cozy part, my exercise part is in my preconscious, ready for use when the time is right. Parts that are not deemed appropriate or acceptable are hidden in the unconscious. Let’s take the jealous/altruistic parts to continue with the example. The jealous part is in the unconscious because jealousy is considered a shameful emotion in my culture, so I’m going to attempt to hide that from myself and others. Even though it’s hidden, it still exists and has a role in the system. Altruism is a valuable quality in my culture, so I am comfortable being conscious of this part. It’s not that altruism is always good or jealousy always bad. My learned cultural shame, however, hides the jealous part from me. Controlling misplaced jealousy is good, but denying it altogether is not good because that part will act without my knowledge. Protective parts that act on my behalf without my knowledge also reside in my unconscious. Like clandestine secret agents that protect countries behind the scenes, these parts have determined that the system shouldn't know their existence. If the system knew these protectors, it would compromise their mission. For example, let's say I have unconscious social anxiety and can quickly become overwhelmed socially, but at the same time, I want to see myself as socially resilient. My conscious thinks of me as socially resilient, and my unconscious thinks of me as quickly overwhelmed. To maintain my view of myself as resilient and not anxious, my unconscious will guide me, without me knowing it, to avoid situations that would reveal my anxiety to me, thereby protecting my consciousness from being overwhelmed. To further illustrate this, let’s say someone criticizes a public speaker, saying, “I could do a better job!” but never pursues public speaking. When asked why I don't pursue public speaking, I’ll say, “Oh, I’m just not interested,” when I actually unconsciously fear public speaking. I criticize the public speaker because the speaker symbolizes fears I have not faced but unconsciously wish I could. Criticizing the symbol is an unconscious attempt to devalue the achievement (getting in front of an audience and presenting) so I can continue avoiding the motivation to pursue that goal. The upside is that avoiding pursuing this goal prevents my conscious mind from being overwhelmed. The downside is I forgo both becoming resilient and doing something that I might enjoy. Your parts and their interactions can take over the Whole Self and obscure the (transcendent) Self when the Whole Self starts identifying with the parts. When the (transcendent) Self is unobscured by parts, the Whole Self can act as a witness and a container that enables you to remain objective and regulated, even in highly challenging situations. Function of self The Function of self refers to things happening in the person and out in the world. Functions are processes of actions, beliefs, and defenses. In the Somatic Field, we talk about the Function of self through the concept of the Satisfaction Cycle from Bonnie Bainbridge Cohen’s Body Mind Centering. These physical actions (to yield, push, reach, grasp, or pull) are metaphors for how we relate to the environment inside and outside ourselves. Each section of the cycle has an action type and beliefs that make the action more or less available to any particular person. Each of these actions can be used as a helpful or unhelpful defense. The satisfaction cycle is only one way to think of the Function of Self. Another version is these three actions in no particular order: reflecting, moving towards/away from the self, and resting or THINK ↔ DO ↔ BE ↔. Healthy Character Structure (Eudaimonia) vs. an Unhealthy Character Structure (Noseo)
I want to be careful when talking about the “healthy” and “unhealthy Character Structure.” The unhealthy Character Structure emerges for really good reasons initially. The paradox is that it is often healthy to create and spend time in the unhealthy version of the structure of self. Trying to jump into the healthy Character Structure is unadvisable, dangerous, and almost impossible to achieve. If one were to achieve such a seemingly rapid transformation, odds are, it would be superficial and potentially disastrous. If the human psyche changes too rapidly, you can experience states similar to psychosis. This is why genuine therapeutic change at the root of the issue can take years and why most short-term therapy models do not make permanent changes for most people and situations. The unconscious will not allow it. A healthy Character Structure has gratitude and agency built by humility and empowerment (Paul Conti, MD). It becomes harmonious with the (transcendent) Self, creating Eudaimonia. Healthy pursuit is called agency. Agency refers to the ability to act independently and make choices. Gratitude characterizes healthy reflection and rest. Gratitude means being in a state of mind where you can think of all the good things built into life and what others have done for you. Humility is the willingness to see yourself as a part of the whole and to acknowledge that you depend on others. Empowerment means accepting the ability and responsibility to take action in the world. You want a Whole Self who says, “I am here, I can do good things, and I am part of a greater whole (Conti).” An unhealthy Character Structure has avoidance and cynicism caused by disempowerment and grandiosity. It is discordant with the (transcendent) Self, creating Noseo. Avoidance in response to excessive conscious or unconscious confusion, fear, and despair is unhealthy. Avoidance feels relieving in the short term but perpetuates the problem being avoided in the long term. Cynicism is an attitude of negativity and pessimism projected onto the world and people. The cynic separates themselves from others with a grandiose defense, seeing themselves as exceptionally superior or inferior (grandiosity in reverse). They cannot see the gifts of life and the good deeds towards them from others. How to build Eudaimonia? If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained, you will also suffer a defeat. You will succumb in every battle if you know neither the enemy nor yourself. - Sun Tsu The Art of War. Swap out “enemy” for environment and “battle” for life challenge from the quote. To build Eudaimonia, you must, above all, get to know yourself. Secondly, you must know the true nature of the world around you as best you can. Being honest with yourself about your own nature and the nature of the world is a painful process initially. Once you have more clarity, you will want nothing more than to continue to refine the accuracy of your understanding of yourself and the world. As you progress on the journey of self-knowledge, you will have to learn your basic nature (your propensities, actions you naturally tend towards) and the collection of habits built on top of it. Your habits form from your basic nature’s interaction with the world around you, which is why life events are crucial to becoming ourselves. Early life events are especially important because early life is when you form your first habits. Those early habits get practiced so much that they become permanent features of your Character Structure. Each habit you acquire is a solution to a regular problem. Habits are not inherently good or bad; they are created to help you survive. Habits either continue to be helpful, or they become unhelpful. You begin to build Noseo if you keep trying to do too many unhelpful habits. You build Eudaimonia when you can adapt your habits as your environmental circumstances change and demand different behaviors from you. As they say in Alcoholics Anonymous, “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.” People get stuck in unhelpful habit loops because of repetition-compulsion and learned helplessness. Repetition compulsion is an unconscious habit performed without thought, like drug addiction. These habits can include trauma reenactments, when you seek out situations that remind you of previous trauma, like getting into abusive relationships as an adult after growing up in an abusive household. In the short term, repeating the pattern decreases anxiety because it's familiar and gives you a sense that you have another chance to understand or master something that previously caught you off guard. Learned helplessness happens when you are wounded so repeatedly in the same way that you grow more familiar and comfortable with that pain than you are comfortable with states of pleasure and well-being. You know you want things to improve but cannot see any way out of your situation. Learned helplessness is psychological blinders that prevent you from seeing other options, even obvious ones. To end cycles of repetition-compulsion and learned helplessness, you must address your trauma wounding. Trauma is anything you have experienced in life that has left its mark on your psyche. Like a physical scar, psychological scars alter the makeup of your Character Structure forever. We can never forget or erase the past, but we can change how we relate to it so that it negatively affects the present as little as possible. Sometimes, it can be as simple as helping the bodymind to realize that the trauma it’s looping on is over now. If you have an ongoing trauma like oppression or chronic illness, you must decide how you will relate to your circumstances. You should not try to “pull yourself up by your bootstraps.” Living in dissociation of your circumstances is not true Eudaimonia. Zenju Earthlyn Manuel's The Way of Tenderness is a fantastic book about remaining tender to ongoing trauma and addressing it in your community, body, and relationships while still carving out the most thriving life possible for your circumstances. You deserve to thrive. Furthermore, and perhaps more importantly, if you are privileged and healthy and you deny the suffering around you, this is also not Eudaimonia. Denial of suffering is persecution. Persecution is an addiction we use to avoid our own trauma and suffering. Rather than address our own traumatized parts, we transfer our trauma onto others. Instead, be honest that structures exist in institutions and the medical field that arbitrarily make life harder for specific groups and act within your sphere of influence to change those structures. Even the smallest contribution to change counts. As you address your trauma, you must also sincerely pursue your chosen goals with flexibility and humility. Conti asks, “Do you take care of yourself? Are you happy you’re here? Do you engage productively in the world?” As you take care of yourself and work to understand the world, you will naturally become humble and empowered to engage productively in the world. You will feel rewarded by your productivity, which causes your sense of agency to increase. You understand that you do not achieve things alone, which increases your gratitude. Endowed with agency and gratitude, you feel happy to be alive, blessed with Eudaimonia. All of this begins with understanding and caring for yourself. There is no “end” to building Eudaimonia. Instead, you learn and enact various processes that are the end in and of themselves. These processes get you through times of the mundane, ecstasy, tragedy, and triumph. They enable you to thrive and, when necessary, survive. Think of the Character Structure as a marble sculpture. You start with a chunk of marble. You begin to chisel a rough shape. Then, most of your time creating the sculpture is spent refining that rough shape. Even when the sculpture is declared “complete,” it still requires protection and restoration from decay and injury. The process is never done. How a Therapist Helps You Build Eudaimonia. You should find your own approach to Eudaimonia. A therapist can help speed and refine your process. Therapists do many things to help, but they primarily do the following: reflect your (transcendent Self), character structure, and function of self back to you so it is easier to see yourself; support you in accurately seeing your environment; identify blocks that you habitually avoid or defend against; and provide interventions that can help those blocks resolve faster and more permanently. You want to make sure you find a therapist that is the right fit for you. Time and time again, it is shown that rapport is the most essential component in an effective therapeutic relationship. Your therapist should:
Having a relationship of rapport with a therapist can be enough to break through old habits and blocks without much fancy footwork from specific types of therapy. When you come to therapy for the first time, you talk about the problems you want to solve. Think of your “problems” like a puzzle or math equation: “I want to get close to people, but simultaneously, I also fear people. I feel lonely because I don’t know how and/or why this happens and, therefore, can’t act differently. I wonder how I will solve this problem.” You seek help from a professional because you hope they can help you see things in yourself you can’t see on your own so that the problems become simpler and, therefore, surmountable. After being in therapy for a while, you feel less overwhelmed and have more of a sense of the consistent problem areas of your life and the sorts of things that help those problems. You still work hard, but the work is simpler. You have the statue's shape and are now in a state of refinement. The math problem metaphor is helpful, but I want to add a caveat. Solving psychological problems can be predictable but not straightforward in the conventional sense. You need simple changes like gratitude journaling, adding movement activities to your life, examining your thought patterns, etcetera, but you also need more intangible interventions like learning to feel your feelings fully and understanding your parts. The intangible pieces are the daimon of Eudaimonia. This is where a good therapist is particularly beneficial. Connecting to your (transcendent) Self is an art and a practice. I can describe the art to you as I understand it, but you must become the artisan of your own psyche. A good therapist does not only teach you; they midwife your sage within. The aim of therapy is Eudaimonia, to harmonize your Whole Self and Character Structure to the (transcendent) Self. There are many practical avenues to achieving this harmony, but there are also many mysterious components to the process. You want a therapist who has been trained in both the practical and the mystery and who has done their own work themselves. This is the most important thing for therapy, more than any particular type of therapy. As an adult, you also must take full responsibility for building your Eudaimonia while also considering your circumstances (chronic illness, oppression, your particular life situation, etc.). This is the most important thing for you as an individual. There is much more to say about building Eudaimonia in a therapeutic relationship than this essay covers. I have done my best to bring forward the foundational aspects of this pursuit. |
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